Friday, March 28, 2008
9:43 PMplayed badminton on fri cause a handful of my classmates do not have lessons for 5.5 hours!! unfair. i realised how much i suck at it when my left hand automatically lifts itself up to catch the shuttlecock. elyy and i so gonna lose. sorry babe. but hey when we played with 05. i didnt suck that bad or did i. anyhows we will see how it goes. haha. sarah has been missing for 2 days. MISS HER LIKE CRAZY!! please come back!! i will get teddy bear to carry you around school!! he really looks like sage by the way more than a teddy bear.
so sometimes being caught between two people really sucks big time. but tehy are my friends and i want to do what i can just that sometimes. i pay more attention to people and im often left out of the damn picture. shouldnt the care and concern go two ways. oh probably they did. but thats because i was sick and i ran off to puke. anyhows they dont bother to find out about how i feel bout certain stuff in class. their conversation never really included me. but im always there when they fight. feel like im being used. once again. oh well. probably that is what im made for. realise i cant truly find a friend in class. except maybe sarah. thats why i need her so much. sc and sk are fine but.. i shall just keep why things changed in my heart. sigh!!!!!!!!!
random topic: death. i hate death. i dont see why people say move on. if it was me. i cant. death affects me alot. it pains me to see someone die even if i do not know that person at all. i just get all grieved and upset. that a life was gone like that. especially if the person is young. like that guy who was training for the triathlon, i really felt like it was big waste. plus he wasnt bad looking!! i wonder why god allows people to die at such a young age. i know its meant to and all. but it just seems unfair to the person and the family and friends. i know all these are part of the great plans of god and i shouldnt be questioning. but i still fail to come to terms with it. so when my grandpa died. i was uber upset. i wasnt that close to my grandpa but he played a very important role in my life. he was my role model. he never gave up and worked really hard. was good at everything and picked up different languages on his own. to me he was a great grandfather. but he was take away on the night that no one was around. WHY! when i reache home from visiting him at the hospital, we received the most dreaded call ever. the news of his departure to hell. why i say hell. he did not accept the lord. and thats reality that he is suffering now. so i hate death though its all part and parcel of life. FRIENDS PLEASE DO NOT DIE ON ME!!!!
on the other hand i wanna die young.
i miss drus and cheryl. you people will never be forgotten!
love can save you. love can break you. in my case. it breaks me.
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