despite my tiredness, i went down to clarke quay today and im very glad i did. it made me realise a hell lot of things. but knowing it is one thing, doing something about it is another thing. i dont know why im procrastinating. 

im sick of asking myself why and not getting the answers. things have changed in such a short span of time. i shouldnt be questioning you. but i think i deserve to know whats been going on in your mind. i really geuinely care about you. its not just all about me. its us. 

chiangmai. excited yet i dont know how much more awkward it would be. today, at the lt, outside the pe office, 3 words, i dont exist. sorry if im over sensitive. anyway, i panicked cuz i cannot find my back pack. im lazy to flip the house and get frantic over it all over again so im borrowing it from dori, which once belonged to zac. im damn lazy to pack. i really got to thank sherlene soon shuhan for being on this trip with me and lau jiaqi too. without the both you, i dont know how to survive chiangmai. 

oh, i found my green watch. im really happy. for that moment.