And so you sailed away, into the grey sky morning

left the house this morning without my phone, cuz as usual i was late. i only realised it in the cab. but for the first time i did not whine bout it. me leaving my phone behind was a good thing afterall. i should probably do that from now on. it prevents me from looking through stuff that i should not be looking through and waiting for something in which i know will never happen. so i wasnt so distracted today. no fiddling of my phone. but then again. going home is so painful. it really is. it does not require alot of energy to just automatically remember those times. as much as they are over. i really wish i could turn back the clock and stop it at the right moment. so that this nightmare would never have taken place.

sorry yy, caleb and shawn. im a mummy's girl. she says no, so im stuck at home. you guys would still have fun without me. haha.

having the worst headache of my life and im blaming it on the weather. one moment its scorching hot, the next minute its raining cats and dogs. as much as i like rain, cuz its so chilly and fun. but i hate it cuz it just reminds me of what i dont want to be reminded of. stupidly, i was looking out for him wherever i was, in hope that i coud coincidentally meet him. haa. stupid. i really am.

the bag i hadf was thrown away by my bro so i borrowed one from dori only to realise thats it is too small. so gotta borrow one from my cousin, otherwise i gotta head down to beach road and buy. talking bout buying. i have never felt so broke in my life. it just makes me feel pathetic. it really does. i mean, first that, now this. there is no end to my misery.

Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin on the block for dough
Notorious, they got to know that
Life ain't always what it seem to be
Words can't express what you mean to me
Even though you're gone, we still a team
Through your family, I'll fulfill your dream
In the future, can't wait to see
If you open up the gates for me
Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it's real, feelings hard to conceal
Can't imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still living your life, after death

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the days, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you

I miss you Big
It's kinda hard with you not around
Til the day we meet again
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe

My thoughts Big I just can't define
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Makin hits, stages they receive you on
I still can't believe you're gone
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still living you're life, after death

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the days, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you

Somebody tell me why
One Black Morning
When this life is over
I know
I'll see your face

it really does not help when my ipod keeps playing sad songs like this.

and grandma, please stop smoking. it really stinks and im having a frggin heasdache. whoever invented cigrarettes, ought to be shot.

headache, headache go away.

come again when i am dead.

pathetic denise whats to play

headache, headache go away.