Saturday, December 13, 2008
6:57 AM
i totally agree with soon. my life, this holiday, practically everything, is damn bloody boring now. yeah, no doubt once in awhile i have fun with my friends. but its still so bloody boring. firstly, i have no plans with family. secondly i have no plans with friends. oh wait i do. but its all either before or after christmas. how bout during christmas. i was really expecting this time of the year to be my happiest time. but things just went awfully wrong. yes, im still harping over it. once in awhile, im able to sweep it away. but not for long. i really had plans. for some many things. why cant something go right for me for once. my studies, my family, my everything. i seem to either fail in everything or everything else just fails me. many more reasons why im upset this christmas. home is the last place i wanna be. cuz when im home, the household chores just automatically becomes my responsibility. and i hate it. cuz im my brother's personal maid. it annoys me. but im not a sister who will say no. dont ask me why. sigh. im gonna be crude tonight cuz my vocab is limited. im fucking upset. i fucking wanna cry. i just want this fucking feeling to go away. now. it sucks to be this way. im suppose to be happy, but im not. not looking forward to my duty as a ohl. i wanna get out of this hell hole. i want someone to make me happy, not just temporarily. im not looking forward to growing up. in fact im dreading it. damn it. i'll stop here. no point ranting. 

im looking forward to, haa. nothing. 

sorry for this random emo post. it just happens once in a while.
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